“A season of receiving? What? Karen, I hate to tell you, but the phrase is “a season of giving”. Are you confused?”
Is that what you’re thinking? It’s kind of what I thought when the phrase popped into my head. What? There’s no such thing as a season of receiving.
Yet, that’s what I’m in right now, or at least that’s how I feel. And I’m uncomfortable with it.
I feel like I should be giving more, but I just don’t seem to be in a position to do that.
Realistically, I’ve spent the last three years in a season of giving, giving to my aging and dying parents primarily. It’s been a luxury and a joy to be able to do that.
But they’re gone now, and I’m kind of starting over. I’m feeling depleted and unenergized, like all the giving has been drained out of me.
It probably has … for now. And that’s not a bad thing.
But I hate it. It makes me feel weak and a bit dependent.
Did I mention that I hate it?
We all hate feeling weak, yet it’s always part of the cycle of life. I know I’ll bounce back. I’ll regain my strength, and I’ll be ready to give.
But I have to give myself time to be filled up again.
Acknowledging that I’m in a season of receiving has helped shift things for me. I don’t have to feel bad or guilty about it. I know I’ll give plenty when the season of giving returns to my life, and it will. Honestly, I’m quite blessed that I am able to receive, that I have people in my life who are willing to help and support me. It will make my recovery all that much easier and faster.
But for now, I’m going to be open to receiving, receiving love, receiving support, receiving guidance from my Higher Self.
I’ll know when it’s time to give again… but for now, I’m going to embrace my season of receiving.
What season are you in? Are you fighting it or embracing it?
Today, I’m wishing you the joy of giving and the freedom of receiving, whatever place you’re in.
With love and light,